Great Construction
One Source of Agony
Readers may be surprised to learn that even I have several matters over which I anguish. I am clearing away the world of darkness and ignorance so of course Satan and Devadatta run rampant and I feel as if I am surrounded by a circle of warriors facing me with the spears of jealousy, envy, oppression, and unfavorable criticism. I work to break through these hardships, slowly expanding into paradise, heaven, this hellish world, so the difficulties are greater than can be imagined. But as I am under the divine protection of spirit of the highest level, I do not experience as much hardship as might be perceived from the outside. Thus, I am continually grateful that there is probably no one in the world as happy as I, and that there is no one else with an intriguing fate as myself.
Having said that, I have other burdens about which people do not know. Of those burdens, I will write about one of the most painful. It should not be necessary to state that this painful burden concerns modern medical science. About modern medical science, I have spoken of and written about the fallacies of medical science, but to be honest, until now I have not been able to plainly state the bare, naked truth. I have been careful to moderate my criticism and avoid provocation. That is because I worried that if I clearly exposed the truth, something tremendous might occur. But even if there were something I would want to announce, God has strictly prohibited me from doing so until the right time.
God has demonstrated to me clearly and thoroughly the facts about human health and sickness. Otherwise, there is no way I would be able to speak of such a tremendous undertaking as the construction of a world without disease. I am able to speak so boldly because I have absolute conviction. The basis for eliminating the suffering of humanity is sickness and disease, so I must say it is rather tragic when I look at humanity nowadays. It indeed causes me unbearable distress, but I am held back by God from making any further statements on the issues, so truly being between a rock and a hard place is me at present. My honest feeling is therefore, Time! Come quickly!
Kyūsei, Issue 65, page 1, June 3, 1950
translated by cynndd* * *
“Hitotsu no Kurushimi,” which appeared originally on the front page of Kyūsei, Issue 65, June 3, 1950, what would turn out to be the last issue of the newspaper with this name, and, while Meishu-sama still alive, reprinted in the essays anthology for ministers Goshinsho: Shūkyōhen (Divine Writings: Volume on Religion), page 443, March 25, 1954, has appeared in translation. Citation is given below for reference.
“My Single Suffering,” True Health, 1987, page 11.