Great Construction

One of My Sufferings

     I, too, have various kinds of sufferings. The mission given to me by God is to help the pitch-dark world so it may turn into the world of Light. So, many negative forces such as Satan and Deva and their followers are naturally working actively, desperately. For this reason it is as though I am surrounded by rows of spears of hatred, jealousy, persecution, and unfavorable criticism.
     We must make a breakthrough and change this world of suffering and misery into a paradise, building it step by step and spreading it slowly but surely. The difficulty of the work is greater than you can imagine. However, since we are blessed with the help and guidance of the highest Spirit the suffering we experience is not as intense as it appears to be to nonmembers. I myself feel I am the most fortunate individual in the world and I am always very grateful, thinking that perhaps there is no one who has such a strange but wonderful fate as mine. However, I am experiencing a different kind of suffering which nobody knows about, the greatest of all my sufferings.
     This is the distress I feel concerning modern medical science. I have long been pointing out the mistakes this science has been making, but to tell the truth, up to the present I could not unreservedly write everything that has been revealed to me. I have carefully avoided anything that might irritate medical scientists because I have felt that if I revealed the whole truth it might cause a serious situation for our church. Also, I was strictly forbidden by God to speak out until the time was right.
     God has revealed to me every truth concerning the health and ailments of human beings, for without that how could I make such a bold statement of intent as to say I was going to help create a world free from disease? I have done so because I have an absolute conviction.
     Since the fundamental cause of the misery of man is sickness, when I see people suffering I cannot help but feel how pitiable they are. It really causes me unbearable pain to observe them in that state. And yet, I have not been allowed to proclaim the way of solution for this problem. At present I am suffering from being placed in this position. My true feeling today is that of a strong prayer for the right time to come soon!

Kyūsei, Issue 65, page 1, June 3, 1950
translated by KH

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“Hitotsu no Kurushimi,” which appeared originally on the front page of Kyūsei, Issue 65, June 3, 1950, what would turn out to be the last issue of the newspaper with this name, and, while Meishu-sama still alive, reprinted in the essays anthology for ministers Goshinsho: Shūkyōhen (Divine Writings: Volume on Religion), page 443, March 25, 1954, has appeared in translation. Citation is given below for reference.

“My Single Suffering,” True Health, 1987, page 11.